realizations

As I'm sitting in interior design class, I have come to the realization that I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I am a junior in high school and it seems that I should know what I want to do as a career. In ninth grade we had to take a career research class, and decide what we want to do. I thought I knew then, but I realize now I have no idea what route I would like to take with my life. I don't know if I want it to be military, or if i want to choose some career. Maybe in design. Or something with animals. Or a spy. I have no idea.

Also, I'm so over school. I hate being forced to spend time with people who i don't want to spend time with, and do things I don't want to do. It seems I am the most noticed in my classes by teachers, even when I try not to be noticed and keep to myself. I get called out all the time for not being on task when half the class is off task, I get yelled at by administration for wearing a beanie, and I get refferals for having my septum pierced wheh other people have had piercings all year long. It also seems that the administration doesn't care at all about the students, anf how their life is at home. All they care about is getting them in trouble for breaking these silly little rules that have no purpose whatsoever. For example, a piercing. That's something you do to yourself outside of school on your own time. I don't think anyone has the right to punish you for that. I think school administrators should stop and think about how students life might be at home before they freak about little nothings.

This morning, my mom found out about my septum piercing. I have a doctor's appointment after school. I'm guessing it's to see if it is infected. I already know it's not. So I basically get to sit in a doctors office for like, an hour while listening to my doctor go on and on about how bad pircings are. fuuun...

I just really wish people could leave me alone.

On the plus side, this thursday will be three months for me and my boyfriend Jacob. :D

I want to hang out with him tomorrow and wednesday but I don't think I will be able too ):

I love

But I mean, "at least I'm not like Poe and I don't kill everyone I touch."

-Nicole.